First Week of HELL!

ok so this week I started a diet. I am want to lose 15lbs before the summer. I have never had to "diet" so this week was very difficult for me to do. Before coming to college, I could eat whatever I wanted and did not have to worry about not fitting into a cute pair of jeans. Today, if I eat half of what I used to goodbye cute jeans hello diet. When I got to college, I gained over 30lbs, which I have only been able to lose 15lb. My weight constanly goes up and down and my main goal is to just be healthy.
So thats how I got to the week of hell!!!!!
I work in an office, and I figured bringing in my lunch and healthy snacks would help crave my appetiate,yeahh right! In my office, people always order breakfast and lunch, oh and even worse the deliever person ALWAYS has to pass right by me and I get the whiff of delicious unhealthy, lots of calories food in my mouth.
Even worse when the weekend came, my boyfriend decided to take me to this resturant I love and I had to order a salad. It was so bad. Oh even worse he order the fattest thing ( steak, fried shrimp and loaded potatoes) and I had to sit there and watch him eat that delicious meal while I ate greens.
But, great news everyone I stuck through it and did not fail
oh by the way, I am going to the doctors on the 13th and will not go on a scale till then; I do not want to become obsessed with the scale.